uterus

from the first operation

operation on for vleesbomen (fibroid tumors)

find out

• caused by complex "hormonal imbalances?"
• estrogen buildup?
• if it is symptomatic of something else then can having the hysterectomy cause breast fibroid tumors?
• can he just leave the cervix anyway?

it will be removed soon.
i think, i won't miss it. i have always had a phobia about having children. i knew from a young age i didn't want to have any of my own. well, there have always been questions for me about why that is.the answer is not a simple one.

from the second operation

meh.

it is out now. it is in the trash. it is in the incenerator.
i don't miss it yet. though what is inside me now is a mystery. where it all sits and how it will all feel.